Shocked!!!

Shocked beyond comprehension.

Exactly as i had thought before....i have a great nack of knowing the bad things coming at me. It happened on the day of laxman's demise. And well, its not that bad but it happened again so many times & I have been ignoring the signals.

Well...today i had experienced a scene, that i had already imagined a few months back. Precisely the reason why i was worried to leave India at this point in my life.

At some point, probably, i would have had to leave anyway. So why not now??

was what i thought! I don't know if i am wrong.....But what i have imagined is absolutely right now. I was right in being worried about leaving Hyderabad(read 'Heaven') and moving to helsinki(read 'no less than heaven').
I was worried about people, and their behavior, and the change in behavior towards me. I am talking about my people back in India(to be precise Hyderabad) and not people in Finland.

And, Now i find in just less than 45 days That every thing has changed.

Only thing i can say, I'm Shocked
Well to say that.... it wasn't all that an unexpected shocking news either!

I really don't know what this post means to u guys reading this....u invariably can't make any sense of it anyway. !!

Raul's Theorem on Indo-European Spending!!

Abstract
When people go abroad, especially students, There is a special problem that we face when we need to spend money. During this trip to finland, and ofcourse my first trip abroad! I have realized very early a little economics lessons and i thought this would be helpful and may be funny too!


Introduction
When i was packing things up for this trip, i also happened to purchase a few euro's. It wasn't a very comfortable feeling to buy out a € for 56+ Indian Rupees. I was thinking while travelling whether this was really that expensive or was i over estimating. Initially i thought, how worse it would be if 1€ in finland = 1Rs in india. Oh! this might be a bit confusing but what i mean was " Lets say if a pen costs Rs.10 in India Then €10 in Finland". Phew!! Amazing numbers, and if things were so, none of us could ever live here. But, what i have found here ( and also proven empirically ) is that if you are earning a little money here, then things are much better than worse.

Theory

Some Theorical standpoints before i mention other things.
Axiom 1: Assume that you are an Indian. And are very comfortable about Indian Rupee. (Notes on Indian Rupee)
Axiom 2: 1 € = Rs. 57 (for latest figures Click Here)

And here comes, the (yet to be famous) Raul's theorem (aka Rahul's Theorem) for Indo-Eorupean Spending!

Theorem 1:
When buying some article in €'s, lets say "X €" then buy the article if you would have been willing to buy the same article in india for Rs. 10*X.

Proof (Empirical):

The following is a small empirical proof what has been laid out in the theorem. Please look at the figures carefully.

Article --------------Cost in € (X) --------------10 * X --------------In India (Rs.) (comments)
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Bread(Big Pack) -------------- 1.59 --------------~ 16 -------------- 20-25

Jam -------------- -------------- 2.2 -------------- ~ 22 --------------50

Coke -------------- -------------- 2 --------------~ 20 -------------- 20

Beer -------------- -------------- 1-3 --------------~ 10 -30 -------------- 50-70

Room Rent --------------640 -------------- 6400 -------------- 4500-7000 ( Yeah! I really live in an expensive place, something like Single Room apartment near Ameerpet or lets say Abids Main Road)




Conclusion:
So with these little figures and of course with many more to cite. I conclude that if you find anything in Euro's and ofcourse if you have to buy it. Make sure that its 10*X price is less than the corresponding price in indian Rupee. Also, if you are earning a bit here, then you can live pretty well, ofcourse it will always be at the back of your mind that if you save a few € 's they would become Hundreds & Thousands of Indian Rupees. But, well i have realized that it really is worth spending, atleast on food. And, for those who don't earn here, and are depending entirely on money comming all the way from india, You will Starve!!

Black Day..........In Loving Memories Of Laxman

From my childhood days i have always been very Questioning. Anything i do not understand, i immediately ask about it. It didn't happen so with Studies but otherwise, in general i was always very Questioning!

Apparently, during my pre-school days!! when i was in KG classes, I regularly haunted my parents with few straight Questions......

చావతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? ( why do v die ?? )
చచిపోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why should v die ??)
చమ్పెస్కోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why do ppl kill each other ??)
చావు అన్తె ఎన్తి ?? (what is death ??)
ఎల చస్తారు ?? (how do v die ?)

These are a few of those Questions that i regularly asked those days.....My parents couldn't answer me, that time....All they could do was Record my Voice....And show me as i grew up!

I was surprised to know that i was so thoughtful at such an early age.

But since then, i never thought about those questions....almost never would have until.....


19th December 2005, a Black day in my Life.... The day in my life, that had taught me probably the best lesson of life! "Nothing is permanent"
A Day of Misfortune, sorrow , Betrayal for some!
a day that had gloomed in many a life...
An accident that Shock our lives out of grounds!
An incident that changed my attitude towards life! A depressing End as we understand life....

much unlike the Dimensions i realized till that point.... a new dimension had blown up! 1 that i never dared to understand! the one that would stretch my imagination...

An experience that led me realize that "Life is never a Bed of Roses"


Miss you Laxman.... Love you


Last year on this day.....I cried a "cry" of my lifetime...... I had no one to share this feeling...except just 1 friend..sundu....to whom im thankfull for being there for me just when i needed...thanks ra.. Thanks for being my support in the most troubled times of my life...

For the first time i had experienced Death....as close as it gets....a friend of mine....who was my classmate....Bench mate....& a member of a gang of 5 ! Four years of solid Friendship......

But, in the game of life....u had to knw the rules of d game first...n then play it!
This probably was part of the rules....

There is another very important thing i recollect, which till today only 2 ppl knew...
me & sundu...
as always...even on that day...18th dec'05 Nite v were chatting...after about 1 AM(i.e 19th Dec) ... i told her... " I sense something weird Going to happen tommorow"

Next day morning i get a message....
A morning greeting doesn't just mean 'good morning'....It has a silent message saying "I Remembered you when i woke up"

-----Laxman



Never before, did he send a message with his name tagged to it.....
I donno y he did so this time......no body will ever know!


This message shall live in my inbox.....almost forever!
A mystery that shall remain unsolved (for me).




I Think god is telling me to shut-up !!
I will go on & on & on......until .......


The Emotional Battles are the most difficult ones.....U Never know if there is a victory or failure......u just keep going.....


In Loving memories of laxman.......