Black Day..........In Loving Memories Of Laxman

From my childhood days i have always been very Questioning. Anything i do not understand, i immediately ask about it. It didn't happen so with Studies but otherwise, in general i was always very Questioning!

Apparently, during my pre-school days!! when i was in KG classes, I regularly haunted my parents with few straight Questions......

చావతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? ( why do v die ?? )
చచిపోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why should v die ??)
చమ్పెస్కోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why do ppl kill each other ??)
చావు అన్తె ఎన్తి ?? (what is death ??)
ఎల చస్తారు ?? (how do v die ?)

These are a few of those Questions that i regularly asked those days.....My parents couldn't answer me, that time....All they could do was Record my Voice....And show me as i grew up!

I was surprised to know that i was so thoughtful at such an early age.

But since then, i never thought about those questions....almost never would have until.....


19th December 2005, a Black day in my Life.... The day in my life, that had taught me probably the best lesson of life! "Nothing is permanent"
A Day of Misfortune, sorrow , Betrayal for some!
a day that had gloomed in many a life...
An accident that Shock our lives out of grounds!
An incident that changed my attitude towards life! A depressing End as we understand life....

much unlike the Dimensions i realized till that point.... a new dimension had blown up! 1 that i never dared to understand! the one that would stretch my imagination...

An experience that led me realize that "Life is never a Bed of Roses"


Miss you Laxman.... Love you


Last year on this day.....I cried a "cry" of my lifetime...... I had no one to share this feeling...except just 1 friend..sundu....to whom im thankfull for being there for me just when i needed...thanks ra.. Thanks for being my support in the most troubled times of my life...

For the first time i had experienced Death....as close as it gets....a friend of mine....who was my classmate....Bench mate....& a member of a gang of 5 ! Four years of solid Friendship......

But, in the game of life....u had to knw the rules of d game first...n then play it!
This probably was part of the rules....

There is another very important thing i recollect, which till today only 2 ppl knew...
me & sundu...
as always...even on that day...18th dec'05 Nite v were chatting...after about 1 AM(i.e 19th Dec) ... i told her... " I sense something weird Going to happen tommorow"

Next day morning i get a message....
A morning greeting doesn't just mean 'good morning'....It has a silent message saying "I Remembered you when i woke up"

-----Laxman



Never before, did he send a message with his name tagged to it.....
I donno y he did so this time......no body will ever know!


This message shall live in my inbox.....almost forever!
A mystery that shall remain unsolved (for me).




I Think god is telling me to shut-up !!
I will go on & on & on......until .......


The Emotional Battles are the most difficult ones.....U Never know if there is a victory or failure......u just keep going.....


In Loving memories of laxman.......