Black Day..........In Loving Memories Of Laxman

From my childhood days i have always been very Questioning. Anything i do not understand, i immediately ask about it. It didn't happen so with Studies but otherwise, in general i was always very Questioning!

Apparently, during my pre-school days!! when i was in KG classes, I regularly haunted my parents with few straight Questions......

చావతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? ( why do v die ?? )
చచిపోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why should v die ??)
చమ్పెస్కోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why do ppl kill each other ??)
చావు అన్తె ఎన్తి ?? (what is death ??)
ఎల చస్తారు ?? (how do v die ?)

These are a few of those Questions that i regularly asked those days.....My parents couldn't answer me, that time....All they could do was Record my Voice....And show me as i grew up!

I was surprised to know that i was so thoughtful at such an early age.

But since then, i never thought about those questions....almost never would have until.....


19th December 2005, a Black day in my Life.... The day in my life, that had taught me probably the best lesson of life! "Nothing is permanent"
A Day of Misfortune, sorrow , Betrayal for some!
a day that had gloomed in many a life...
An accident that Shock our lives out of grounds!
An incident that changed my attitude towards life! A depressing End as we understand life....

much unlike the Dimensions i realized till that point.... a new dimension had blown up! 1 that i never dared to understand! the one that would stretch my imagination...

An experience that led me realize that "Life is never a Bed of Roses"


Miss you Laxman.... Love you


Last year on this day.....I cried a "cry" of my lifetime...... I had no one to share this feeling...except just 1 friend..sundu....to whom im thankfull for being there for me just when i needed...thanks ra.. Thanks for being my support in the most troubled times of my life...

For the first time i had experienced Death....as close as it gets....a friend of mine....who was my classmate....Bench mate....& a member of a gang of 5 ! Four years of solid Friendship......

But, in the game of life....u had to knw the rules of d game first...n then play it!
This probably was part of the rules....

There is another very important thing i recollect, which till today only 2 ppl knew...
me & sundu...
as always...even on that day...18th dec'05 Nite v were chatting...after about 1 AM(i.e 19th Dec) ... i told her... " I sense something weird Going to happen tommorow"

Next day morning i get a message....
A morning greeting doesn't just mean 'good morning'....It has a silent message saying "I Remembered you when i woke up"

-----Laxman



Never before, did he send a message with his name tagged to it.....
I donno y he did so this time......no body will ever know!


This message shall live in my inbox.....almost forever!
A mystery that shall remain unsolved (for me).




I Think god is telling me to shut-up !!
I will go on & on & on......until .......


The Emotional Battles are the most difficult ones.....U Never know if there is a victory or failure......u just keep going.....


In Loving memories of laxman.......

Yaadein....Time for a Flash Back

Every Single time you meet your friends, you feel the immense pleasure that we find in meeting them, remembering the days that have gone by.

Last sunday (Dec 3rd) I had a flash back of over 15years... :O
My best friend had come to hyd, so i wanted to meet her. planned for the evening & very casually as always moved away. This was the only plan for me, Meeting her was just more than enough for me. Who knew the hidden surprises in store for me. I met her & then we went to a mall nearby... we were just about to start our snacks..... Surprise..Surprise...
Much to anybody's surprise... geetha found a guy staring at us. Staring.....it was more than staring. ha ha ha...
after a moment of weird look she said " Chakrapani hai kya ?? "
I looked around, Puzzled. "yup!!".It was chakri & his 2 younger brothers.

By the way for those who dont knw him ... he is a GEM of a kind. He holds a record in school that hasn't been broken yet. I don't believe it can b done so soon! He was topper from 4th class(when he joined the school) to 10th class & then again in 12th class. He then went on to do his B.Tech from IIT Guwahati in CSE, & currently working with MicroSoft. we had a chat & after some time we dispersed.

I looked at time...6.40 PM. Too early to get back home...afterall i boasted that i wont b back home till 10 :D

Now it was time for some planning... I called up my Chemistry teacher, if she could be available. "yes".
Ooo la la...
Meeting her after a six month gap. Felt unbelievably happy. She has also been one of those very few people, who believed me, when no one else did! Uncle was a great a painter. I always used to look at his paintings to try to understand or to appreciate. But, there were indeed times when I & my sister were the only spectators beyond their house. I used to regularly visit his paintings galary, as they used to stay next door.

But, today ... mam got an album. i recollected that uncle has been conducting Exhibitions. must be of those... But what were these photo's im looking at... All the big wigs of indian Economy, politicians ( Natwar singh....) & Musicians (shankar ,ehsaan , loy, sivamani......)
Again got back to his latest paintings... www.thecrea.com


I went on to meet Mini my childhood friend, probably my first female friend..haha ..
yeah she used to feel like a boss!! she knew my mom, as her father was mom's coleague. I was as always & as iam now..Never liked to write notes in class.
in 3rd class she used to hit me with pencil, and say " Rahul, Notes likh... nai to mummy ko bolungi..."
ha ha ha...the fun we had over the years...10 years of strong friendship in school & 5 years from that time now... No change....same THENGA(Coconut) ...ha haha..

Incidentally i also met a Junior, he brought back a few moments as well.... He reminded me of the Karate Ground where we practiced, the place (rather palace) where i sweated the most.
The Roads that lead to our success. the roads on which we used to 5-8-10 Kms (:O)

It was all over now! i had to leave....
As i was leaving... I saw the Chat Bhandaar where I tirelessly ate in the evenings....Also reminded me of Ankur Bajaj who in this same chat bhandaar once ate Panipuri for 20 Rs. and was requesting his day " Papa please papa...bas 2 rupaye aur" . Imagine guys ( 20*4= 80 , what!!) ofcourse it is 1998, i'm talking abt.

A rendezvous with geetha had turned into a "Virtual Get-Together " . so thanks to her!