From my childhood days i have always been very Questioning. Anything i do not understand, i immediately ask about it. It didn't happen so with Studies but otherwise, in general i was always very Questioning!
Apparently, during my pre-school days!! when i was in KG classes, I regularly haunted my parents with few straight Questions......
చావతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? ( why do v die ?? )
చచిపోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why should v die ??)
చమ్పెస్కోవతమ్ ఎన్దుకు ?? (why do ppl kill each other ??)
చావు అన్తె ఎన్తి ?? (what is death ??)
ఎల చస్తారు ?? (how do v die ?)
These are a few of those Questions that i regularly asked those days.....My parents couldn't answer me, that time....All they could do was Record my Voice....And show me as i grew up!
I was surprised to know that i was so thoughtful at such an early age.
But since then, i never thought about those questions....almost never would have until.....
19th December 2005, a Black day in my Life.... The day in my life, that had taught me probably the best lesson of life! "Nothing is permanent"
A Day of Misfortune, sorrow , Betrayal for some!
a day that had gloomed in many a life...
An accident that Shock our lives out of grounds!
An incident that changed my attitude towards life! A depressing End as we understand life....
much unlike the Dimensions i realized till that point.... a new dimension had blown up! 1 that i never dared to understand! the one that would stretch my imagination...
An experience that led me realize that "Life is never a Bed of Roses"
Miss you Laxman.... Love you
Last year on this day.....I cried a "cry" of my lifetime...... I had no one to share this feeling...except just 1 friend..sundu....to whom im thankfull for being there for me just when i needed...thanks ra.. Thanks for being my support in the most troubled times of my life...
For the first time i had experienced Death....as close as it gets....a friend of mine....who was my classmate....Bench mate....& a member of a gang of 5 ! Four years of solid Friendship......
But, in the game of life....u had to knw the rules of d game first...n then play it!
This probably was part of the rules....
There is another very important thing i recollect, which till today only 2 ppl knew...
me & sundu...
as always...even on that day...18th dec'05 Nite v were chatting...after about 1 AM(i.e 19th Dec) ... i told her... " I sense something weird Going to happen tommorow"
Next day morning i get a message....
A morning greeting doesn't just mean 'good morning'....It has a silent message saying "I Remembered you when i woke up"
-----Laxman
Never before, did he send a message with his name tagged to it.....
I donno y he did so this time......no body will ever know!
This message shall live in my inbox.....almost forever!
A mystery that shall remain unsolved (for me).
I Think god is telling me to shut-up !!
I will go on & on & on......until .......
The Emotional Battles are the most difficult ones.....U Never know if there is a victory or failure......u just keep going.....
In Loving memories of laxman.......
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Bad Start for Day 2.....Yet a good finish!!
Day 2 of the sports meet started on a very bad note for me...
on day 1 i had vomited after finishing the 1500 mts race....So i thought it could b b'cos of an empty stomach & today i had my breakfast before the Race!
the day started with 800 Mts Racing & i crumbled after being leader till 500mts.... n thn retired as a leader itself...as i had a muscle pulled out....This decision was very important for me....'cos i had to participate in many more events after this!
Followed by Long Jump....Failed to reach the top spot! But for my own records....my best jump was recorded 4.46 Mts... the best of the day was 4.80 Mts
I had enough of it now!
Rammed straight into 400 Mts race...
Determined to get a medal for myself & some points for the team. I ran tirelessly the entire run.
Very fortunate to have got a very important tip from one of the External Referee who had come to adjudicate the proceedings of the sports meet.
Then it was time for 4 * 400 Mts Relay....After a promising start by mahaveer who stood second in the first lap(exactly as he promised before he went to the track).... an unexpected Breath-Taking Effort came from Prudvi...who hadn't participated in any event in the last 2 days......He gave us an unimaginable 10 Mts Lead in the second lap...I Exchanged Batton with him in the third LAP.....As always i took a leap in my first 100 Mts...And my poor competitor of other team had forgotten his basics & ran as hard as he could to chase me....& in the end got tired b'for he could finish his final 100 Mts....But i had a steady run after the initial burst i gave ....And hence took a whooping 40-50 Mts lead.....Then i had exchanged Baton with Our teams Best Athelete...& two time Best athelete award winner & 2 Time second best in the same(including this year)....This guy just had to Jog till the final moment....And we would win....But as Competitive as he gets...He Ran a less tiring run....only to finish the race... We Won The GOLD.
Medals Tally...
GOLD---1
Silver---2
Bronze--2
By the way...we hav got a track suit from college for our exceptional performance at the ICFAI-Tech earlier this year... we had won their Futball tournament...being the Highest Goal Scoring team(10 goals in 4 games) & also the least Goal Conceding team(just 1 goal in 4 games).
on day 1 i had vomited after finishing the 1500 mts race....So i thought it could b b'cos of an empty stomach & today i had my breakfast before the Race!
the day started with 800 Mts Racing & i crumbled after being leader till 500mts.... n thn retired as a leader itself...as i had a muscle pulled out....This decision was very important for me....'cos i had to participate in many more events after this!
Followed by Long Jump....Failed to reach the top spot! But for my own records....my best jump was recorded 4.46 Mts... the best of the day was 4.80 Mts
I had enough of it now!
Rammed straight into 400 Mts race...
Determined to get a medal for myself & some points for the team. I ran tirelessly the entire run.
Very fortunate to have got a very important tip from one of the External Referee who had come to adjudicate the proceedings of the sports meet.
Then it was time for 4 * 400 Mts Relay....After a promising start by mahaveer who stood second in the first lap(exactly as he promised before he went to the track).... an unexpected Breath-Taking Effort came from Prudvi...who hadn't participated in any event in the last 2 days......He gave us an unimaginable 10 Mts Lead in the second lap...I Exchanged Batton with him in the third LAP.....As always i took a leap in my first 100 Mts...And my poor competitor of other team had forgotten his basics & ran as hard as he could to chase me....& in the end got tired b'for he could finish his final 100 Mts....But i had a steady run after the initial burst i gave ....And hence took a whooping 40-50 Mts lead.....Then i had exchanged Baton with Our teams Best Athelete...& two time Best athelete award winner & 2 Time second best in the same(including this year)....This guy just had to Jog till the final moment....And we would win....But as Competitive as he gets...He Ran a less tiring run....only to finish the race... We Won The GOLD.
Medals Tally...
GOLD---1
Silver---2
Bronze--2
By the way...we hav got a track suit from college for our exceptional performance at the ICFAI-Tech earlier this year... we had won their Futball tournament...being the Highest Goal Scoring team(10 goals in 4 games) & also the least Goal Conceding team(just 1 goal in 4 games).
Friday, December 15, 2006
A special Blog for a special person!!..... Touch of Timing!
Answering all the Critiques?? was he? Never should we answer our critiques with our tongue!
Use your best weapon against them! Thats exactly what Dada is doing....
I wouldn't say he had played an extra-ordinary innings, but needless to mention, with the kind of Display he had Put in, that he is Officially Back!!
His Defence was very Good too! Never like before, actually.
With His Display of Rare Extraordinary timing with his willow! he is an obvious here!
By the way..."His First Boundary after an Year's GAP in International Cricket" is one that you can watch Days together....Into his favorite area....Piercing the field!
Tommorow is really the day he wil need to give some work to his willow!
Waiting for Your Response DADA!! not your tongue mind u.....Your willow needs to answer my prayers!
Use your best weapon against them! Thats exactly what Dada is doing....
I wouldn't say he had played an extra-ordinary innings, but needless to mention, with the kind of Display he had Put in, that he is Officially Back!!
His Defence was very Good too! Never like before, actually.
With His Display of Rare Extraordinary timing with his willow! he is an obvious here!
By the way..."His First Boundary after an Year's GAP in International Cricket" is one that you can watch Days together....Into his favorite area....Piercing the field!
Tommorow is really the day he wil need to give some work to his willow!
Waiting for Your Response DADA!! not your tongue mind u.....Your willow needs to answer my prayers!
A Good Begining..........must lead to a good ending
The much awaited Sports days(2days) made a gala begining today.....Action started rite At 7 in the morning when 1500 Mts Racec would "lift off" , the rest of the proceedings!
Well long distance running is my first love...when it comes to athletics!, I always used to miss that when in CVR.
Time had come to prove...but not an inch of practice....infact getting up at 7 itself was a huge thing....which dint happen even today!
My house captain....Had bangged straight into my room! And woke me up!
Went to the ground in the most awkward position....looking at me....most people should have "written me Off" , Not until results proved to be other wise...
I Had taken the lead initially, which is not very conventional in long distance racing...but i knew i wouldnt have enuf energy to give a burst at the end.!
I was determined to Complete the race!
I did it....and secured Bronze too!
AfterMaths!! "Vomitings" Unbelievable....but for the first time in my life...i experienced vomitings in a play field!
At 2 O'clock i get a call....."we need u rite here"
i was puzzled....ther wasn't any event in which i was going to participate...then how come ??
I rushed in.....it was 100 Mts relay. & my team badly required a sprinter....they found that in me :P Another medal....this time a Silver.
4 in the afternoon, went to the Jumping pit.....looking at it... i think i can make it!
I was learning to make a jump!
Event was Tripple jump!
i remembered remotely that i had participated in that event about...8 yrs ago!
Rules also came as a surprise to me!
First jump has to b the best jump i thought, went straight into 2nd place with my first jump....in the first round..but the lead that the guy in 1st position was Amazing....my jump was 9.97 Mts, while his was 10.16 Mts..
Nothing very special happend in the second round...but in the final Round another guy who was in 3rd place surpassed me... Not by much but was enuf to snatch Silver from me...
I had my 1 last chance to prove....I made the best jump of my life! hmmm...yeah really!
10.14 Mts...only 2 cm away from the winner!
May b i could hav actually done better!
But, neverthless, that silver is worth a gold! [:D]
3 Medals on the first day.
Now, no one writes me off!
They realize...this 1 is nt a conventional PG guy they r used to seeing...
Anyways 3 cheers to my House Prithvi
Well long distance running is my first love...when it comes to athletics!, I always used to miss that when in CVR.
Time had come to prove...but not an inch of practice....infact getting up at 7 itself was a huge thing....which dint happen even today!
My house captain....Had bangged straight into my room! And woke me up!
Went to the ground in the most awkward position....looking at me....most people should have "written me Off" , Not until results proved to be other wise...
I Had taken the lead initially, which is not very conventional in long distance racing...but i knew i wouldnt have enuf energy to give a burst at the end.!
I was determined to Complete the race!
I did it....and secured Bronze too!
AfterMaths!! "Vomitings" Unbelievable....but for the first time in my life...i experienced vomitings in a play field!
At 2 O'clock i get a call....."we need u rite here"
i was puzzled....ther wasn't any event in which i was going to participate...then how come ??
I rushed in.....it was 100 Mts relay. & my team badly required a sprinter....they found that in me :P Another medal....this time a Silver.
4 in the afternoon, went to the Jumping pit.....looking at it... i think i can make it!
I was learning to make a jump!
Event was Tripple jump!
i remembered remotely that i had participated in that event about...8 yrs ago!
Rules also came as a surprise to me!
First jump has to b the best jump i thought, went straight into 2nd place with my first jump....in the first round..but the lead that the guy in 1st position was Amazing....my jump was 9.97 Mts, while his was 10.16 Mts..
Nothing very special happend in the second round...but in the final Round another guy who was in 3rd place surpassed me... Not by much but was enuf to snatch Silver from me...
I had my 1 last chance to prove....I made the best jump of my life! hmmm...yeah really!
10.14 Mts...only 2 cm away from the winner!
May b i could hav actually done better!
But, neverthless, that silver is worth a gold! [:D]
3 Medals on the first day.
Now, no one writes me off!
They realize...this 1 is nt a conventional PG guy they r used to seeing...
Anyways 3 cheers to my House Prithvi
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Sporting Time.....getting my kit ready!!
Time has come, that i do a bit of jogging. run sprints in the evenings. Chase Vehicles ?? :O
All the mad-mad things that one can imagine to improve upon the running speed.
Once, a hero of CVR now a zero at IIIT, when it comes to Sports.
The Sports meet is gonna start on 15th...well 2 days from now!
And yesterday was the day...i fixed up to start my routine ...........to early :P
My first day routine was so horrible that later in the day i just couldn't Concentrate!
I remember all those golden days at CVR nothing of it was 'cos of CVR but 'cos of friends there! A series of important events...
The sight of the 100Mts event Victory....the technically cunning way that i won the race...its still right here in my memory.
It was so damm Gud to win against a Champion...& surprise the world around me!!
I remember Kranti naming me "Common Wealth Games"
Those days would never b back....
Life here is quite unusual! I never get up as early as 6.30 so no chance for anything like warmup or a jog.
And the otherwise sophisticated Technocrats & Researchers are also quite good atheletes...and infact there are a few who regulary run(daily). I have 1 final yr B.tech student here, who Runs from IIIT to Tolichowki....Mind u, daily!!......Whooping 8-10 Kms.
With such kind of people around...just gotta wait n see whats in store for me!
All the mad-mad things that one can imagine to improve upon the running speed.
Once, a hero of CVR now a zero at IIIT, when it comes to Sports.
The Sports meet is gonna start on 15th...well 2 days from now!
And yesterday was the day...i fixed up to start my routine ...........to early :P
My first day routine was so horrible that later in the day i just couldn't Concentrate!
I remember all those golden days at CVR nothing of it was 'cos of CVR but 'cos of friends there! A series of important events...
The sight of the 100Mts event Victory....the technically cunning way that i won the race...its still right here in my memory.
It was so damm Gud to win against a Champion...& surprise the world around me!!
I remember Kranti naming me "Common Wealth Games"
Those days would never b back....
Life here is quite unusual! I never get up as early as 6.30 so no chance for anything like warmup or a jog.
And the otherwise sophisticated Technocrats & Researchers are also quite good atheletes...and infact there are a few who regulary run(daily). I have 1 final yr B.tech student here, who Runs from IIIT to Tolichowki....Mind u, daily!!......Whooping 8-10 Kms.
With such kind of people around...just gotta wait n see whats in store for me!
Monday, December 11, 2006
Dada Alaa re......waiting for the Bengal Tiger to Roar
Dada is back!!!
yes he is!
After a long cruel summer, dada is back in action...very literally here. The winter gets ready for the raging rampage of fire in the form of DADA.
We have seen him in all the shades of an Active, Confident, commanding, even Arrogant player...But his comeback match was something special...(despite being only a 4-day match)
Not many noticed but he actually showed the world that he is rebuilding his career. He became the first Cricketer to field in "Forward-short-leg" position in a comeback match. Actually (for those who don't know), "Forward-short-leg" is a position that the new comer to the team is put in. Debutant or the youngest in the team takes up the responsibility.
Keeping customs away.... Our Dada had different thoughts... He was rebuilding his career...how best could it be, than this...
He surprised everybody in the audience & commentry box when he went in to the field with a helmet on & shin-pads.
Well adding a few Sidhuism's for Dada in this Context....
"You cannot make Omelet without breaking an egg."
"Character is not created in Crisis, it is exhibited" ( So Apt here)
Gud luck Dada... :)
PS:
I have stopped watching Cricket over the last 8 months since dada has been removed from the team.... Now that he is back.... I'l join the party too! This 15th the Carnival Begins! :)
yes he is!
After a long cruel summer, dada is back in action...very literally here. The winter gets ready for the raging rampage of fire in the form of DADA.
We have seen him in all the shades of an Active, Confident, commanding, even Arrogant player...But his comeback match was something special...(despite being only a 4-day match)
Not many noticed but he actually showed the world that he is rebuilding his career. He became the first Cricketer to field in "Forward-short-leg" position in a comeback match. Actually (for those who don't know), "Forward-short-leg" is a position that the new comer to the team is put in. Debutant or the youngest in the team takes up the responsibility.
Keeping customs away.... Our Dada had different thoughts... He was rebuilding his career...how best could it be, than this...
He surprised everybody in the audience & commentry box when he went in to the field with a helmet on & shin-pads.
Well adding a few Sidhuism's for Dada in this Context....
"You cannot make Omelet without breaking an egg."
"Character is not created in Crisis, it is exhibited" ( So Apt here)
Gud luck Dada... :)
PS:
I have stopped watching Cricket over the last 8 months since dada has been removed from the team.... Now that he is back.... I'l join the party too! This 15th the Carnival Begins! :)
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Yaadein....Time for a Flash Back
Every Single time you meet your friends, you feel the immense pleasure that we find in meeting them, remembering the days that have gone by.
Last sunday (Dec 3rd) I had a flash back of over 15years... :O
My best friend had come to hyd, so i wanted to meet her. planned for the evening & very casually as always moved away. This was the only plan for me, Meeting her was just more than enough for me. Who knew the hidden surprises in store for me. I met her & then we went to a mall nearby... we were just about to start our snacks..... Surprise..Surprise...
Much to anybody's surprise... geetha found a guy staring at us. Staring.....it was more than staring. ha ha ha...
after a moment of weird look she said " Chakrapani hai kya ?? "
I looked around, Puzzled. "yup!!".It was chakri & his 2 younger brothers.
By the way for those who dont knw him ... he is a GEM of a kind. He holds a record in school that hasn't been broken yet. I don't believe it can b done so soon! He was topper from 4th class(when he joined the school) to 10th class & then again in 12th class. He then went on to do his B.Tech from IIT Guwahati in CSE, & currently working with MicroSoft. we had a chat & after some time we dispersed.
I looked at time...6.40 PM. Too early to get back home...afterall i boasted that i wont b back home till 10 :D
Now it was time for some planning... I called up my Chemistry teacher, if she could be available. "yes".
Ooo la la...
Meeting her after a six month gap. Felt unbelievably happy. She has also been one of those very few people, who believed me, when no one else did! Uncle was a great a painter. I always used to look at his paintings to try to understand or to appreciate. But, there were indeed times when I & my sister were the only spectators beyond their house. I used to regularly visit his paintings galary, as they used to stay next door.
But, today ... mam got an album. i recollected that uncle has been conducting Exhibitions. must be of those... But what were these photo's im looking at... All the big wigs of indian Economy, politicians ( Natwar singh....) & Musicians (shankar ,ehsaan , loy, sivamani......)
Again got back to his latest paintings... www.thecrea.com
I went on to meet Mini my childhood friend, probably my first female friend..haha ..
yeah she used to feel like a boss!! she knew my mom, as her father was mom's coleague. I was as always & as iam now..Never liked to write notes in class.
in 3rd class she used to hit me with pencil, and say " Rahul, Notes likh... nai to mummy ko bolungi..."
ha ha ha...the fun we had over the years...10 years of strong friendship in school & 5 years from that time now... No change....same THENGA(Coconut) ...ha haha..
Incidentally i also met a Junior, he brought back a few moments as well.... He reminded me of the Karate Ground where we practiced, the place (rather palace) where i sweated the most.
The Roads that lead to our success. the roads on which we used to 5-8-10 Kms (:O)
It was all over now! i had to leave....
As i was leaving... I saw the Chat Bhandaar where I tirelessly ate in the evenings....Also reminded me of Ankur Bajaj who in this same chat bhandaar once ate Panipuri for 20 Rs. and was requesting his day " Papa please papa...bas 2 rupaye aur" . Imagine guys ( 20*4= 80 , what!!) ofcourse it is 1998, i'm talking abt.
A rendezvous with geetha had turned into a "Virtual Get-Together " . so thanks to her!
Last sunday (Dec 3rd) I had a flash back of over 15years... :O
My best friend had come to hyd, so i wanted to meet her. planned for the evening & very casually as always moved away. This was the only plan for me, Meeting her was just more than enough for me. Who knew the hidden surprises in store for me. I met her & then we went to a mall nearby... we were just about to start our snacks..... Surprise..Surprise...
Much to anybody's surprise... geetha found a guy staring at us. Staring.....it was more than staring. ha ha ha...
after a moment of weird look she said " Chakrapani hai kya ?? "
I looked around, Puzzled. "yup!!".It was chakri & his 2 younger brothers.
By the way for those who dont knw him ... he is a GEM of a kind. He holds a record in school that hasn't been broken yet. I don't believe it can b done so soon! He was topper from 4th class(when he joined the school) to 10th class & then again in 12th class. He then went on to do his B.Tech from IIT Guwahati in CSE, & currently working with MicroSoft. we had a chat & after some time we dispersed.
I looked at time...6.40 PM. Too early to get back home...afterall i boasted that i wont b back home till 10 :D
Now it was time for some planning... I called up my Chemistry teacher, if she could be available. "yes".
Ooo la la...
Meeting her after a six month gap. Felt unbelievably happy. She has also been one of those very few people, who believed me, when no one else did! Uncle was a great a painter. I always used to look at his paintings to try to understand or to appreciate. But, there were indeed times when I & my sister were the only spectators beyond their house. I used to regularly visit his paintings galary, as they used to stay next door.
But, today ... mam got an album. i recollected that uncle has been conducting Exhibitions. must be of those... But what were these photo's im looking at... All the big wigs of indian Economy, politicians ( Natwar singh....) & Musicians (shankar ,ehsaan , loy, sivamani......)
Again got back to his latest paintings... www.thecrea.com
I went on to meet Mini my childhood friend, probably my first female friend..haha ..
yeah she used to feel like a boss!! she knew my mom, as her father was mom's coleague. I was as always & as iam now..Never liked to write notes in class.
in 3rd class she used to hit me with pencil, and say " Rahul, Notes likh... nai to mummy ko bolungi..."
ha ha ha...the fun we had over the years...10 years of strong friendship in school & 5 years from that time now... No change....same THENGA(Coconut) ...ha haha..
Incidentally i also met a Junior, he brought back a few moments as well.... He reminded me of the Karate Ground where we practiced, the place (rather palace) where i sweated the most.
The Roads that lead to our success. the roads on which we used to 5-8-10 Kms (:O)
It was all over now! i had to leave....
As i was leaving... I saw the Chat Bhandaar where I tirelessly ate in the evenings....Also reminded me of Ankur Bajaj who in this same chat bhandaar once ate Panipuri for 20 Rs. and was requesting his day " Papa please papa...bas 2 rupaye aur" . Imagine guys ( 20*4= 80 , what!!) ofcourse it is 1998, i'm talking abt.
A rendezvous with geetha had turned into a "Virtual Get-Together " . so thanks to her!
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